Coronavirus and Chill.

[cathartictea]

So, my college is officially 'off' for the week.

There won't be any classes, though nothing really changes for me; I've been taking online courses all semester and I still have to go to work tomorrow (though even then, I work mostly online and simply meet with my 'boss' a couple times a week... it's just work-study, but it is still a job depending how you view it, though it's definitely not livable). My assignment deadlines have been lengthened so I have more time to breathe, at least. 

I guess I have "more time than usual" to read the books I've been wanting to read for months, or binge-watch a bajillion Netflix series I've been meaning to watch, or get some cleaning/room rearranging and other chores done, but... I could have done those things anyway. I'm probably STILL not going to be do all that (aside from cleaning, that's important), because, I'm in a bad state of mind right now. You know, that stage those of us with depression go through when we just feel like literal blobs for a few weeks? I'm so behind on my school work and my internship projects, but all I can think about doing right now is sitting on Youtube watching ghost hunting videos. I decided to switch it up just a little bit by making a DreamWidth account. Y'know. Priorities.

I'm a bored blob who is currently procrastinating at 3 AM. I SHOULD have taken a shower hours ago, and I SHOULD be sleeping right now, but again, my depression/anxiety drives me to live on my computer, avoiding all adult responsibilities.

Honestly, though, I decided to give this site another go in order to possibly find a community to vibe with on here.
If I can't find a community of people, I at least have a blog so I can vent into the void. Joy.

Since this is technically my first post, I'll introduce myself:

I'm a 20-something college student (communications major, ironically, since I can't write for shit) who still lives at home, because I'm a ridiculous grown human being with no money. I'm honestly quite boring nowadays, if you couldn't tell by my little 'spiel' above. I like making pretty edits and icons when I'm motivated to do so, and I used to make decent Gifs during my former Tumblr days. I watch too much Youtube and read too many Webtoons. I watch too much television and don't read enough books. I still love the same things I did as a kid/teenager. Some days all I want is a nuclear family with a white picket fence, but I settle for my current life because i'm hopeless. 'm the basic girl who rewatches Gilmore Girls and substitutes iced coffee/tea as a personality trait. When I'm not stressing out or crying, I'm attempting to be a more positive person... but holy shit life keeps getting worse, and this coronavirus business isn't helping–mostly because I'm worried about my dad's (poor immune system) and my grandparents' health. 

Some stuff I love:

Kuroshitsuji, Fullmetal Alchemist, The Witcher (Netflix, idk much about the games/books), Stranger Things, Castelvania (Netflix vers. again), and various other anime/shows. I love 80s rock & pop but I also still love my 00's punk/emo bands. Still obsessed with Hamilton (musical) in 2020. And honestly, I can't list all of my interests at once because, damn, I don't remember everything.

Aaaand... that's a wrap!

This account is officially going to be my cry for help.
 

ENJOY!!!!!!